This last week has sucked. I am running on vapors at this point and have zero patience left. I’ve been taking care of my son from 7am until 1pm, trying to get stuff done around the house until 2pm when my kid inevitably wakes up early from his nap, then working from 3pm when my husband comes on childcare duty until I crash at night, usually around 9 or 10pm. It’s taking a toll on me, mentally and physically. I want to feel lucky to have a job that I can work from home, and to still have an income. But I don’t feel that way. I feel exhausted, and I don’t know how I’m going to sustain this much longer. This is untenable, and I’m tired. I’m tired of losing my patience with my kid because I’m in pain and out of energy. I’m tired of getting emails from the company I work for telling me how valued I am as an employee while also saying they definitely can’t give us leave to assist with childcare because it’ll hurt their bottom line. I’m tired of working late into the night so some CEO can make an extra million this year. I’m just tired.

I’m taking a few hours off today. I have a migraine, so I’m going to go sleep and try to pretend the world isn’t collapsing all around me. Maybe things will be better when I wake up.